My favorite season is summer, it occurred to me recently that I have been spending this summer wishing it away. It is not unusual to spend more time wishing away time, then to actually enjoy the time I have. It doesn't stop at deployments either, there are countless training sessions, drill weekends, AT, the list goes on and on, in these times of being apart I typically experience a lot of guilt. The guilt comes in many forms, it may be the result of having fun without my husband, being here for the once in a lifetime moments he is missing, or for silly resentment I sometimes feel because holding down the fort gets overwhelming and exhausting. The result is pretty much the same, I wish time away.
While I am in the home stretch of this deployment, I have made an executive decision to stop wishing away the days. Instead of feeling guilty for taking the kids to the pool, I am going to relish sitting by the pool, all carefree and tan. Instead of spending the days inside and wasting away, we are going to go out and pretend as if we are just like everyone else.
So, this week, I have crammed in just about everything I can possibly fit into a week. We started swimming lessons and are preparing for a new belt in Tang Soo Do, we have the Fourth of July coming up and there will be no shortage of parades, fireworks, or BBQ's! Old Glory shall fly proudly in our yard, we will wear red, white, and blue, we will sing along with Toby Keith,okay for the sake of others we might hold off on the singing, but we will take advantage of every minute summer has to offer! Summer will be fun, it will be a blur and before we know it, we will be enjoying it without wishing it away anymore.
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